i've always been nocturnal. a creature of the night! for me it's normal to want to sleep all day and stay up all night.
throughout my entire childhood my parents had trouble putting me to bed. when i was a baby my grandfather noticed that i always fell asleep on car rides, so at night he'd strap me up in my car seat and drive around the neighborhood till i dozed off.
how cute is that?
to this day i sleep very well in a moving vehicle. luckily when i'm behind the wheel i don't get drowsy or anything. unless of course i've been up for x amount of hours, like i wrote about in my 2nd blog entry (ack! sparrows!). i do get reeeaaally bored when i'm driving though. but that's what music is for. XM radio....even better!
when i was a kid my bedtime was at 9pm. naturally, i expressed my strong objection to this every single night. after my dad would read to me i would just lay in bed... in the dark...bored out of my mind. hours later i'd finally drift off, usually waking up multiple times throughout the night/early morning.
most nights i spent under the covers with a flashlight and a book. good thing i had a lot of books. i guess that's how i maintained my sanity!
kindergarten was great because i only went for half a day, in the afternoon class! so i'd sleep in till about 11a.m. every day. i still had difficulty getting up at 11, though! and when i started the 1st grade...man! talk about a rude awakening. for 10 years, every single weekday morning throughout the entire school year was miserable.
high school wasn't so bad because i found out that i could function rather well with a mere 3-4 hours of sleep each night. i'd go to bed between 2-3 a.m. and wake up at 6 to be at school by 7. I actually felt more alert and had tons of energy when i got less than 5 hours of sleep.
hmm...now that i think about it...i did occasionally indulge in the art of napping.
on the weekends i'd get 6-8 hours of sleep. i'd stay up till 5am or so...stumble out of bed in the afternoon. as long as my parents let me get away with it, that is. but i'd feel so sluggish for the rest of the day.
well anyway. i seem to always give so much background information.
i am so irritated with the fact that:
a) it takes me forever to fall asleep, no matter how tired or sleepy i am.
b) i dream every single night. sometimes my dreams are fun and interesting. other times, they're stupid and pointless. really think that my nighttime head trips just tire me out.
and i can actually read in my dreams. i don't think you're supposed to be able to do that. if i'm not mistaken, the portion of your brain that reads text isn't active as you're sleeping.
ooh, maybe i'm not dreaming and actually traveling about the astral plane!
cool!
yeah, i don't know about that.
but, hey. who knows?!
could it be lucid dreams? would that tire me out, though? hmm. i have some research to do.
c) when i finally do fall asleep, in between dreams, i wake up throughout the night. sometimes it's two or three times. other times it's every hour or so.
i'm not anxious. i meditate. i practice yoga. i don't play video games/use the computer/watch tv/get overly excited before going to bed. i have a few hours of "quiet time" to just wind down. sometimes i'll read or listen to some relaxing trance or classical music.
i remember there was a time when i couldn't sleep without the radio on. but that was when i was in high school.
i really don't know what to do.
i guess i have some kind of a sleep disorder. i don't think there's anything really wrong with being a night person *hisses at the sun*...but there is something wrong with waking up 5,395 times a night and sitting around for hours waiting for the sandman to come (did he get laid off?!?).
i don't like the idea of taking sleeping pills. the last thing i need is to develop an addiction.
maybe i'll look into going to a Sleep Center. let them stick those...erm...thingies all over me and monitor my brain waves, breathing, heart rate...all that stuff.
(note to self: invest in a vocabulary builder. thingies? come on, now.)
oh well.
carpe noctem!
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